In the midst of a deafening silence, I hear this song – “There was something in the air that night, the stars were bright, Fernando…!!!” – One of my all time favorite pieces of music, kindles my long last forgotten memories of my sweet little cousin, who would swing his head back and forth to this rhythmic song, surrendering to his harsh, screeching hue…Being persistent with this, I further go revisit all my disguised moments of ecstasy, anguish, accomplishment, exasperation, sustenance, recuperation predominated by music…
Think of this, times when an exhilarating music brought tears to ur eyes rolling down ur cheeks, an excruciating gnawing music sending shivers down ur spines, a devotional song wringing out the spell of renunciation and reunion with the inner soul, a rhythmic tune to which ur mind and heart starts dancing inadvertently, a romantic tune that left u mesmerized…finally, an ode of joy and sorrow that upheld u during the moments of despair…
Music has been playing such a pivotal role in my life that I dare not stop myself from delving deep into this unfathomable, abstract feeling…Well, Is music synonymous to a feeling, do we stigmatize a feeling as being an abstract entity? Lot of questions, answers to which are impenetrably mundane, titillate your inner self to figure out answers…
Why does music elicit feelings, it begets physiological changes, proven by scientific experiments. I am not attempting to be a neuroscientist; this is just what I think…
Brain is composed of different regions, somewhat analogous to life, I keep reiterating the philosophy of life – Life is compartmentalized, each phase of life gets activated once and you get to enjoy that aspect of life only during then…I tend to get digressed very easily nowadays:D, well coming back to the brain and its intricacies, each neuron remains in a state of limbo, unless an external stimuli instigates it… This again reminds me of “War of the Worlds” (besides, the fact that I love to hate that movie) wherein an external signal ignites the buried dormant vehicles. When the brain receives signals of certain frequency, the region of brain that is capable of perceiving that wavelength processes it and subsequently the neuron is activated. The patterns of neuron activation monopolizes the feelings, each of this pattern represents one unique feeling. Does this establish the relationship between the music and subtle nuances of mood? Well, the entire processing is not this simple, there is more to it. How does the brain treat the music, how precisely does one describe the processing of music tones in the brain – still an intriguing biological mystery?
How do I relate to music – it’s an indispensable element of my life, everything seems to be so inconsistent and ephemeral to me – ‘This too shall pass…’ a 4 worded-phrase circumscribes the integrity of a multidimensional endurance. Pandemonium engulfing the reality of existence transcends any feeling but for a feeling of oneness with music – a feeling of an eternal consanguinity – something that I fear not of losing!!!
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Monday, September 26, 2005
To Dad With Love
Most of my blogs and moreover, my blog title itself does n't reflect the true "Rashmi" - is what my friend keeps complaining... She thinks I am a bubbly and energetic person and none of what I write bespeaks my heart;) - Well, if at all anyone thinks of me in the same way then I guess its probably bcos of the many wonderful things that have happened to me over the years and one of the best things I have had in this life is MY PARENTS - They set the threshold and nothing can possibly surpass them ever in my life...
DAD! this is for you on your Birthday - Might sound a little too hackneyed, but still...
did you ever realize you have been so good at whatever you have been?
As a son, I have witnessed every bit of affection and respect you had for ammumma, I saw, believed and learnt the importance of being a child to a mother – Ammumma was never unhappy with you for whatsoever reason, you handled her with utmost care and love like her caretaker sometimes…
Everyone in the office used to admire your professional coduct; you were self disciplined despite many inconsistencies at your work place – you were a wonderful employee with tons of patience to be kind enough to help out with your junior colleagues and courteous enough with your senior colleagues even during situations that called for a heated argument.
Well, what can I say about mom – she is probably the happiest among all to have you, a man so well balanced and handles any bickering with perfect poise. Appreciating the many different points of view, you find philosophical concepts just right, and you don’t vacillate and have confidence in any conclusions at which you arrive. Being fastidious about cleanliness, you have proven so helpful to mom in many ways too;)I wish to have a husband just with the qualities like yours :D!
About the kind of person you are among ur friends and relatives, anyone with problems make sure they let you know first and rely on your help, this is just enough to demonstrate what you mean to them!!
I wonder how you can perfect anything that you do, I wish I can do things so meticulously as you do…You set my threshold for perfection.
Is there anyone at all in this world who thinks ill about you, I guess not!! You have been nice to anyone and everyone you have met and left no apprehensions about you in their minds….
Finally, what you have been to me – Something I like to adore and adorn in my heart than say it in words and make it sound clichéd and trite…relentless love and support besides being my role model…You are the best for me and I can't dare to ask for more - i pray to god to give me enough strength to keep you happy and return back atleast a an ounce of what I receive from you.
God makes everyone good, but you have identified both the god and the good in you and have tried to live upto it, prob the best one can do in one’s lifetime – I love you and Happy returns of the day Again! May lord always be with you!!!
DAD! this is for you on your Birthday - Might sound a little too hackneyed, but still...
did you ever realize you have been so good at whatever you have been?
As a son, I have witnessed every bit of affection and respect you had for ammumma, I saw, believed and learnt the importance of being a child to a mother – Ammumma was never unhappy with you for whatsoever reason, you handled her with utmost care and love like her caretaker sometimes…
Everyone in the office used to admire your professional coduct; you were self disciplined despite many inconsistencies at your work place – you were a wonderful employee with tons of patience to be kind enough to help out with your junior colleagues and courteous enough with your senior colleagues even during situations that called for a heated argument.
Well, what can I say about mom – she is probably the happiest among all to have you, a man so well balanced and handles any bickering with perfect poise. Appreciating the many different points of view, you find philosophical concepts just right, and you don’t vacillate and have confidence in any conclusions at which you arrive. Being fastidious about cleanliness, you have proven so helpful to mom in many ways too;)I wish to have a husband just with the qualities like yours :D!
About the kind of person you are among ur friends and relatives, anyone with problems make sure they let you know first and rely on your help, this is just enough to demonstrate what you mean to them!!
I wonder how you can perfect anything that you do, I wish I can do things so meticulously as you do…You set my threshold for perfection.
Is there anyone at all in this world who thinks ill about you, I guess not!! You have been nice to anyone and everyone you have met and left no apprehensions about you in their minds….
Finally, what you have been to me – Something I like to adore and adorn in my heart than say it in words and make it sound clichéd and trite…relentless love and support besides being my role model…You are the best for me and I can't dare to ask for more - i pray to god to give me enough strength to keep you happy and return back atleast a an ounce of what I receive from you.
God makes everyone good, but you have identified both the god and the good in you and have tried to live upto it, prob the best one can do in one’s lifetime – I love you and Happy returns of the day Again! May lord always be with you!!!
Monday, September 12, 2005
True Love!!!
I stumbled upon this quote today while browsing through the news channel:
This left me pondering for a while. One must be truly benevolent to give love, it’s a divine and egoless feeling that happens to everyone but rarely do people accept and appreciate it. Every soul is capable of giving true love to another, but one hardly realizes as he/she is engulfed in the darkness of vainglory. Ok, lemme pause before I get too philosophical about this!!!
True love comes quietly, without banners or
flash-ing lights. If you hear bells, get your
ears checked.
Erich Segal
This left me pondering for a while. One must be truly benevolent to give love, it’s a divine and egoless feeling that happens to everyone but rarely do people accept and appreciate it. Every soul is capable of giving true love to another, but one hardly realizes as he/she is engulfed in the darkness of vainglory. Ok, lemme pause before I get too philosophical about this!!!
Friday, September 02, 2005
How Deadly you turned out to be 'Katrina' ...
Yet another manifestation of nature’s sleight of hand to prove how impotent a human is – every time she hit us, she reminds us how invincible she is and how atrocious it can get!
It’s a forgone conclusion that we have to bear the brunt of such natural wraths. However, what still vexes me is our fiasco in managing the repercussions of such a mishap.
Four days after such a tragedy, one can still see scenes of floating corpses, scavengers fighting for food and there are people still crying out for help. It’s heartbreaking to read and see such news. What is so great about the technology that can not efficiently perform the search and rescue tasks? We talk of technology replacing human by robots religiously performing house chores and unmanned vehicles trying to look for some life in mars, when there is not enough intelligence and sympathy to protect the life which is right in front of you – woefully dying. How many people have realized the power of technology, should we not use our discretion to prioritize and discern what is important so that we concentrate our resources for those tasks? I miss a heart beat when I think of what death could mean to me, one in thousand times we perceive the vitality of life – perhaps, when we see our people or ourselves being victimized in such situations things might be more blatantly evident and some hope for revolution then!!!
And all of this has been more brutal to the poor in particular. It’s an anathema to be born as a poor, most hackneyed phrase – Is there no way we can eradicate poverty, Can’t we use any *technology* for this purpose. I see innumerable social problems rooted in our society, killing millions of people in one or the other ways – physically and/or mentally. Are there no *devices* / *algorithms* to solve these problems. I am getting so freaked out with this technology-driven life that I have to admit I am feeling like living in a forsaken haven.
I am sorry for going berserk but all these things have really left me crestfallen.
It’s a forgone conclusion that we have to bear the brunt of such natural wraths. However, what still vexes me is our fiasco in managing the repercussions of such a mishap.
Four days after such a tragedy, one can still see scenes of floating corpses, scavengers fighting for food and there are people still crying out for help. It’s heartbreaking to read and see such news. What is so great about the technology that can not efficiently perform the search and rescue tasks? We talk of technology replacing human by robots religiously performing house chores and unmanned vehicles trying to look for some life in mars, when there is not enough intelligence and sympathy to protect the life which is right in front of you – woefully dying. How many people have realized the power of technology, should we not use our discretion to prioritize and discern what is important so that we concentrate our resources for those tasks? I miss a heart beat when I think of what death could mean to me, one in thousand times we perceive the vitality of life – perhaps, when we see our people or ourselves being victimized in such situations things might be more blatantly evident and some hope for revolution then!!!
And all of this has been more brutal to the poor in particular. It’s an anathema to be born as a poor, most hackneyed phrase – Is there no way we can eradicate poverty, Can’t we use any *technology* for this purpose. I see innumerable social problems rooted in our society, killing millions of people in one or the other ways – physically and/or mentally. Are there no *devices* / *algorithms* to solve these problems. I am getting so freaked out with this technology-driven life that I have to admit I am feeling like living in a forsaken haven.
I am sorry for going berserk but all these things have really left me crestfallen.
Monday, August 29, 2005
Look whoz blogging!!!
well, does it really make sense in me blogging, my mind does nt talk rather its stutters, so am i going to confuse my readers with my equivocal thoughts or rather kick off their introspestion....well, i would rather see my blogging as moulding myself from a confused state to a composed state...
hope i hvnt scared u guys away, I promise I will be better than this :D!
hope to read more of ur comments to accomplish the very objective of blogging...
hope i hvnt scared u guys away, I promise I will be better than this :D!
hope to read more of ur comments to accomplish the very objective of blogging...
How I Wish I lived one day of my life like this…
How I wish my life was as simple and unassuming as this…
Wake up in the morning to the tender touch of the sun's rays persuading an optimistic today
Touch the cold flowing water chronicling life's magnanimity of impermanence
The kiss of the first hour's cold breeze to wash away the bitter memories of the yester months and bestow a new light of hope for now
Embrace life as a rose being fully aware of thorns which is there to remind me of challenges – a flower that it is to bring a smile on my face
Enjoy the innocent pleasure of being with kids and ignoring the imbroglio of my life
Watch the sun set down and the moon rise high up, behind the clouds singing a song elucidating the ebb and flow of life
Gazing at the stars winking at me, sweetly murmuring the joy of being at the top
I wish my life was as simple as this –
Like an innocent infant who is unaware of mind and its enveloped maze of entwined thoughts
And I wish I could appreciate the pristine beauty of the world as is with an immaculate soul and heart!!
Wake up in the morning to the tender touch of the sun's rays persuading an optimistic today
Touch the cold flowing water chronicling life's magnanimity of impermanence
The kiss of the first hour's cold breeze to wash away the bitter memories of the yester months and bestow a new light of hope for now
Embrace life as a rose being fully aware of thorns which is there to remind me of challenges – a flower that it is to bring a smile on my face
Enjoy the innocent pleasure of being with kids and ignoring the imbroglio of my life
Watch the sun set down and the moon rise high up, behind the clouds singing a song elucidating the ebb and flow of life
Gazing at the stars winking at me, sweetly murmuring the joy of being at the top
I wish my life was as simple as this –
Like an innocent infant who is unaware of mind and its enveloped maze of entwined thoughts
And I wish I could appreciate the pristine beauty of the world as is with an immaculate soul and heart!!
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